My whole being is just, difficult. Hello and welcome to my insides. I am a certified extroverted introvert :) (Okay not certified but you know, I just KNOW) I love going out but I NEEEEED MY TIME ALONE. FAR AWAY FROM EVERYONE. But you're either one or the other Tatenda YOU CAN'T BE BOTH. No, this is how I am. But I'm often misunderstood. Very misunderstood. Very. Okay fine then. Explain further and we'll see whether you're telling the truth. Gladly. Take for instance, everyone often sees me as this inarguably extroverted unicorn because that’s the personality that gets the most attention which in turn attracts more people. The other side of me, prefers to turn their phone off and just spend the whole day reading. But to get one thing clear, according to everything related to psychology(the internet is a cool place yo) THERE IS NO ONE THING OR ANOTHER. You really don't have to be one type/thing. It's a spectrum really, and I just happen to be dead in the centre. Sometimes, not often though, you'll see me flip-flopping between the two. Okay, you have my attention. Keep talking. I'm glad you're almost on board even though you're very confused right now. So I' m gonna make it a little easier and put it in point form. Just a quick breakdown to my moods. Well me in general. I’ll be the first to admit my moods are complex — sometimes I’m as busy as full-time working badass(like my mum) and other time I refuse to leave the house. At. All. THANK. YOU. I've actually had to learn to be more extroverted because I've come to the realization that to survive and grow you have to interact– it’s kind of unavoidable. To relieve you of some confusion, here are a few things I'd like you to know about me, an extroverted introvert. 1. I need my alone time before and after a social meetWhether I'm meeting up with one person or twenty I NEED TO BE ALONE because believe it or not my social energy has an expiry date... well more like expiry time. If I don’t have enough time to myself between adventures, I begin to feel irritable, exhausted, anxious and sometimes even sad. Like really sad. 2. I suck at responding to texts (a lot of the time) because sometimes I don't want to talk- to anyoneIt’s not that I hate people or that I'm frustrated by them. Sometimes I’ve just been around people so much that I’m exhausted from talking and texting and Facetiming and I just don’t want to talk. Don't get it twisted I'm 1000% okay with hanging out in person, just don’t expect me to talk too much when I'm in one of these moods. 3. I love my time alone.Sometimes I just want to be alone. Far from anyone and everyone. Exclude myself from activities going on around me especially on my cellular phone. A lot of the time I just want to play my games and just not be disrupted, so forgive me if I don't respond to you for days, I just need to be with me sometimes. 4. But I get super lonely sometimesLonely?! Oh please. You're what, 17? and you're talking about being lonely. Wow.
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Parray is not a word. It's party. Party. A tea party. ON Sunday I went for a tea party that went from drinking granadilla juice to making a music video(coming to you in due course). One thing I did take from the tea party is that every minute you have with people(or a person) is an opportunity to change them or change yourself. Nuggets. Wise nuggets. Now for some photos. more photos ici. (just click the ici s'il vous plaît.)I'm fed up. For now. Temporary paralysis in my head. Fed up. Today life hit me. Hard. I saw it coming but I thought I could take the shots but here I am at 10:43 pm trying to keep myself together. It's just me in the dining room and I should be studying but honestly, I can't. I genuinely am tired. Human interaction is scarce and my fantasy is running wild, but it's not like I don't want to, it's just that I can't. By perseverance the snail reached the ark. |